Homecoming and goings - A PSL for Ben and CRAU Mal

[mal_contented]

THIS IS NOT GAME CANON FOR MISSRECALLED.


That said, warnings for:
Spoilers
Angst
Um.... Did I mention angst?
And bad jokes, clearly.

Other things may happen as the plot goes, not sure. But I mean... I'm still me.

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[mal_contented]

"You're not the horrible one here, Ben! I don't even know if I know how to love! How am I supposed to know why I love someone if I don't know if I even can love?! Anyone you marry has to be able to love you, and love Auradon! It can't just be about what makes m happy, it has to be about what keeps everyone safe! And I can't do that!"

She started to sob, hated herself for that. "I.... I'm not what you need," she whispered. "Not what Auradon needs. Because I... I can't be... not me...."

[didimention]

“You told me you loved me at Cotillion. I was cursed by Uma and you saved me with true loves kiss. I’d still be under her spell if the kiss didn’t work Mal.” Which was a horrible thought to even think about. Uma was a threat to all of them currently it wasn’t good.

“You can be you. That’s why I really want to show you the stained glass window I made. You loved it the first time.”

Sorry, paid ran out >.<

[mal_contented]

She looked up at him, so confused. So lost. Hope was at war with the defensiveness she had always needed to survive. If she shed it, and hope was betrayed... what would she have left?

Losing Ben again would hurt more than anything she'd ever felt. More than losing Lydia. More than going back to the Isle.

"But... what if... I'm not the right me...?" she whispered. "What... I don't remember any of that, Ben. What if that's a different me, a different Mal. In her room or something right now.... And then you are.. are stuck with two of us...?"

Re: Sorry, paid ran out >.<

[didimention]

Ben sighed. He felt like this conversation wasn't going anywhere and he really didn't know what to do. All of this didn't make sense, how could there be two Mal's. He was half tempted to run back upstairs to where he left Mal originally to see if there was indeed two of them. However, it wasn't right leaving this Mal here. It was still Mal he just didn't know how to deal with this.

"I know... this is going to get really complicated and confusing Mal. I really want to show you what I made so you know I'm not tricking you or anything like that. Jane helped me design it actually I think you'll love it. I know you trust me so you can follow me if you want to. Are you hungry or anything?" He asked with a smile since he could easily ask the kitchen to make something for Mal. Not that big of a deal.

Re: Sorry, paid ran out >.<

[mal_contented]

She had been about to reply when he mentioned being hungry. Her stomach replied before she could. Not her fault! She hadn't gotten to meet Sylvando for dinner before arriving here and she still felt uncomfortable eating in the cafeteria at Diatu. And not just because the food there was as likely to bite you back as to lay flat on the plate.

"Um..., food might be good..." she mumbled. She was still sure there had to be another her, or this was som trick or... or something.

Because this? Ben being like this? Bing back but that being okay? She wanted it. More than she'd ever wanted anything.

And life didn't generally give her what she wanted. Ever.

Re: Sorry, paid ran out >.<

[didimention]

Ben smiled and nodded understanding. The cooks would be glad to make them something. That's what they were there for. "I can always show you the painting afterwards. I just really need you to see it before the end of the day." Or at least he had hoped that she'd want to see it, he also wondered if they would bump into another Mal. He'd just have to wait and see for that.

"You don't need to tell me. I just need to know what you've been up to. You just look really frazzled and I want to make sure I know how to take care of you." He took a deep breath and walked towards the castle where the kitchens were. "I'm going to need to tell Evie as well along with Jay and Carlos. They'll be really confused."

Re: Sorry, paid ran out >.<

[mal_contented]

"There is no need to upset them," she said, quickly. Panicked. "If there really are two of me here... they don't need to deal with that."

She wished Ben didn't have to deal with that either.